The day has been set: 3/25/14. The Man-Child takes his road test…he very well may be a licensed driver on this date.
Damn.
I’m not ready, I’m really, really not.
He asks me sometimes what he was like as a small child, and I am more than happy to oblige him my memories, for they are phenomenal; he was amazing. I know what you’re thinking: He’s your kid! Of course you think that! And you’d be right, to a certain extent. He was, and remains amazing in so many ways.
Out of all three of my children, he is what I think of as most-mine. Strange, I know, but let me explain. This child looks exactly like me (apparently I would have made a better looking man than a woman), he thinks like I do, he responds the way I do, he hates people, change, and assholes. He understands a joke, and more importantly when not to make one, when to laugh, and when to be silent and reflective. He is empathetic, humorous, and a gigantic pessimist by his God-given nature.
But.
He speaks his mind, come hell or flooding high waters, where I remain silent. He accepts others’ faults readily, where I tend to discount others, judging far too swiftly. He loves without reservation, unguarded, where I have taken up the post using more weapons than an Army Ranger possesses to protect my overly-fragile heart.
He is what I wish I could go back and be. He’s a lot of me, just…more fully.